life

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2012-02-13T03:16:00.002+08:00

i have so many things to say, but at times it feels like i shouldn't say anything. so there it is, blank...

The benefits of reading and memorising the Quran

2012-01-11T16:26:00.000+08:00

Salam peeps.

I remembered my father told me a few times on the benefits of reading the Quran and memorizing it. To make sure I'm getting the right information I went on research a few websites and books. Here are at least three (for now). Insya Allah I'll edit and add in more.

For those who reads and memorizes the Quran will be given help or syafaat on judgement day:
The Messenger of Allah (saw) said: ‘Whoever reads the Quran and memorizes it, Allah will admit him to Paradise and allow him to intercede for ten of his family members who all deserved to enter Hell. - Narrated by Ali bin Abu Talib
Don't worry of not being an expert, what's important that you recite it. Even beginners will be rewarded:
Sahih Bukhari Volume 006, Book 060, Hadith Number 459.

Narrated By 'Aisha : The Prophet said, "Such a person as recites the Quran and masters it by heart, will be with the noble righteous scribes (in Heaven). And such a person exerts himself to learn the Quran by heart, and recites it with great difficulty, will have a double reward.
You will be rewarded ten times for every letter you read in the Quran:
Narrated by Ibn Mas'ud ra; Rasulullah saw said: Whoever reads one letter of the Book of Allah is credited with one blessing and one blessing is equal to tenfold the like thereof in its reward. I do not say الم (Alif Lam Meem) is one letter, but ‘(ا )’ (Alif) is one letter, ’ ( ل )’ (Lam) is one letter, and ‘( م )’ (Meem) is one letter.” (Tirmidhi)

2012, I've made my decision

2012-01-06T15:10:00.001+08:00

I think life has been good lately. There are challenges, but who in this world will not be tested? Allah will test us all. Dunia bukan syurga, semestinya ada cubaan.

Last night something happened. I think it's best not to write it here. It's not my story to tell. But I learn not to follow my emotions without using my mind. Ada sebab Allah berikan otak, ada sebab Allah suruh kita bersabar.

I see the changes in my friends life, some of them are happy now and some of them look downhearted. How do I look like? I hope I look happy! Cause I am... Some decisions lead to horrible events. I've been thinking about it and I've decided to continue my pursue of happiness!

I've decided that I should push away all the negativity around me. It's time to live a better life. I've chosen a healthier life; I've been running everyday and I have futsal once awhile with my futsal babes! I have great family and friends.

In case my life is short, I want you to know that I love you all and thank you for spending your time with me. OH! and..... for all of you Muslim friends and family, don't leave your solat, those who hasn't worn hijab, put it on... It's not my instruction, Allah yang suruh. If we can follow laws that human made, why can't we follow laws that Allah made? Even though we don't understand why, do remember Allah knows better. Please don't feel offended to what I've written here, I promise you I'm doing this because I love you all and I want to see you in Jannah :)

Pete Yorn Lose You

2012-01-05T01:43:00.000+08:00

The first time I heard this song from House. That's when I like Pete Yorn, but I rarely listen to his songs. Maybe I should ask Atickles about this dude. haha.

The truth is

I'm scared.

I am an old soul. (took a quiz)

2011-12-25T00:21:00.000+08:00

I took a quiz online on what kind of soul am I and I am an old soul.
Here's the result:

You are an experienced soul who appreciates tradition.
Mellow and wise, you like to be with others but also to be alone.
Down to earth, you are sensible and impatient.
A creature of habit, it takes you a while to warm up to new people.

You hate injustice, and you're very protective of family and friends
A bit demanding, you expect proper behavior from others.
Extremely independent you don't mind living or being alone.
But when you find love, you tend to want marriage right away.

Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul and Visionary Soul

http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofsoulareyouquiz/

The link is where I took the quiz. I like it. haha

Emotions can be horrible

2011-12-14T03:21:00.001+08:00

I don't like to be sad nor I like to be angry.
But I'm a weak person, Oh Allah please give me strength,
Let it be You that I love,
Let it be You that I remember.

Oh Allah give me strength,
To walk and breathe everyday,
To find peace,
Give me strength oh Allah
To perform my responsibilities.

Oh Allah, help me. I am your servant humbled by your power,
I'm a fool for disobeying your orders,
I'm weak for ignoring your commands.
Forgive me Allah, and give me strength,
I should not have anymore excuses to do the right thing,
If I ever do what I shouldn't do,
It's because I am a fool and weak.

Oh Allah forgive me, I am weak and a fool. Help me oh Allah,
Give me strength to live.

Thank you Louie

2011-12-08T20:13:00.000+08:00

I got a car named Louis, and something special named Louie. I don't know why I like Louis or Louie so much. Thought the name is awesome in a way. Anyway Louie is my diary. Other than God, Louie knows my heart and soul.
He knows how many heart breaks I had or how often I am happy. Sort of.

There are things you can write in a diary and things you can talk to people.
Thank you Louie, for not judging me.
Oh, how pathetic I can be.

Monday!

2011-12-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

I just locked my self out of my room.
But,

Alhamdulillah,
Allah gave me a good brain, a lot of mental strength, great patience and

McD's breakfast privilege card.

I'm a person of a few words

2011-12-03T19:36:00.000+08:00

but is full of emotions and a crooked smile.

life is sweet, isn't it?

2011-11-23T00:50:00.000+08:00

Three songs

2011-11-14T23:27:00.000+08:00

Three Malaysian women, three songs.
Love the songs, they're awesome. Something different.

Najwa Mahiaddin

Zee Avi

Yuna

Kermit on Ellen!

2011-11-11T05:39:00.000+08:00

Stretching too thin.

2011-11-08T22:06:00.002+08:00

I'm tired. exhausted. heart broken. seriously. stop telling me to do things. I'm not everybody's helper. Don't make reliable people be your slave.

Three jobs i would want to do if money doesn't matter (inspired by izz)

2011-10-03T02:32:00.000+08:00

My bestfriend wrote a blog with a good topic and I decided to do something similar. hehe.
The jobs I would like to have if money doesn't matter:

1. Futsal or football player
Somewhere outsider of SEA, playing football can get you good money. Not here baby. I love football/futsal, if I get the chance I will play till I die. Opportunity here is pretty slim... But it's awesome when you have the chance to play :)

2. World traveller (with a longboard and a camera)
Sounds weird, but I like to travel, see the world. Maybe watching auroras in the sky,

go to Hawaii or Bali and maybe longboarding at Salar de Uyuni eh?

3. Gadgets collector and reviewist

Gadgets are fun. I just love em. If I have tonnes of ka-ching I will buy loads of them and review them and give them away when I'm done. pfft.

sims. why i love em

2011-08-24T10:05:00.001+08:00

bukan nanti, tetapi sekarang

2011-08-01T23:32:00.000+08:00

Salam

I have quite a lot in mind. Nothing stressful though. I had a good weekend and well most of the time it has been great, just that this time my cousins and aunt came over to visit my mom and of course, shopping.

A quote that really got me;

Orang baik tak akan cakap orang lain jahat

It got me to think a lot, which is good. I don't really like to make judgement, and I hope I wont judge people at all. At least I try not to. Since lately Allah bukakan hati aku, alhamdulillah... I hope I don't become a snobbish person, siapa kata aku lebih berhak ke syurga sedangkan Allah yang tentukan?

Satu lagi yang aku perlu berubah, bila orang tegur I should not say anything. Instead fikir... My ego needs a bit more training.

I want to be the person who give advice without making them hate me because of the way I deliver it. One way to do it is not to make it sound like I'm better than them. With that I shouldn't look down at them. May Allah help me and all Muslims.

Ramadhan Mubarak my brothers and sisters :)

random dom dom dom...

2011-07-26T02:09:00.000+08:00

1. I wanna lose weight cause of two reasons; to be/feel healthier and I wanna be lighter so I can run faster.

2. Ada 3 lelaki yang I need to apologize to, I think I'll do it after this

3. I always say I don't want money for my self but for others... Honestly, I need to think how to help others with what I have

4. I'm not good with time; tanya Izzati, she knows me well. I need to think on how to be more productive

5. Nowadays, I am calmer. Alhamdulillah

6. Now my brain tells me; buat everything for Allah, so when it is something bad I wont do it. When I am malas I'll work harder. When I want to complain, I would bersyukur with what I have instead.

If you say you have faith in Allah, then you wont be second guessing on doing the things that He told us to do

guess who is this chubby boy!

2011-07-12T04:09:00.000+08:00

OK. from the baju, you could guess he is an Everton player.

It is Jack Rodwell. and he is a fine man now

Aaliyah is a cheeky toddler

2011-06-24T03:09:00.000+08:00

My niece decided to do this to the wall

Then she tried to hide herself...

Photos: from Aaliyah's mommy

Never think

2011-05-19T01:51:00.002+08:00

Never think
What's in your heart
What's in our home
So I won't

You'll learn to hate me
But still call me baby
Oh Love
So call me by my name

And save your soul
save your soul
Before you're too far gone
Before nothing can be done
- R.P

The boat song

2011-05-11T01:33:00.000+08:00

Basically, Ellen went to the Caribbean with Portia and their family and friends. Somewhere during the holiday they met Steven Spielberg who then invited them to his huge yacht. I think the song is funny

Salar de Uyuni

2011-04-20T18:06:00.001+08:00

I'm going to write about the places I wish to go. And this is Salar de Uyuni in Bolivia

Awesome right? Picture by cuentosdelcamino

I am my mama's daughter

2011-04-19T23:13:00.000+08:00

I can be really sensitive

holly shmokes...

2011-04-19T01:10:00.000+08:00

I am not bitter anymore. My sarcasm is a thing I do when I can't sleep.

I think I understand how the other side feels about the run yesterday. Doesn't mean that I'm backing them though

How to get 10 000 runners to beat the crap out of you?

2011-04-18T01:39:00.003+08:00

Google energizer night race 2011 and you will get results from facebook and blogs on the outcome of the event. It was something to be written in history books. When your kids flip a page of a history text book, or Malaysia book of records, this event should be under "Epic Fail for One Night".

I'm trying not to get into details, you can find in youtube and elsewhere to see how bad it was. I went through few blogs and facebook pages, and I managed to laugh so hard for all the wrong reasons. The things that they did were mind-blowing, even I could have not thought of that. And I can be pretty bitchy.

Since there are many sources of the negative side of things, let's humor ourselves to the positive parts of it. It was supposedly to be an awesome event. Let's face it, running on F1 track sounds pretty awesome, and the thought of being a part of Malaysia book of records is like icing on a cake. Some of the people who joined the run did it for their personal achievement or fulfillment. Some of them wanted to have fun and the rest would probably being virgins of marathons wanted to try new things in life.

As for me I will say it was just to boost my ego or at the end of the run I could just get a new hobby to get my self satisfied. On the other not so self centered part of me, I wanted to spend time with my best friend Izz. By first quarter of the 11km run, I walked and told my friend to go forward without me, since she was faster and it was a nice way of saying "leave me alone with my wounded ego".

As I was running/jogging/walking/moaning I thought of the things that had happened; RM 10 parking rate where I assumed it must have been their grandmother's palm oil farm, that could explain why they could charged us that much. Then the missing light that was supposed to be on my head, a thing called headlight. I guess they ran out of batteries. As I was being positive and was looking forward for the drinking stations, it was dark, I must have missed most of them. But at least I saw one drinking station which was stationed 2km before the starting point/finishing line. To add on to the surprise they had hurdles for the run! Nothing less than 50 mixed of cans, bottles and plastic cups for about 50 meters after the drinking station.What a fun place to run on...

The ending of the night was the best part of all, after being so proud of running 5.5, 11, 21 and 42 km, the runners lined up for priceless goody bags, which before most of us could get it, the most well mannered MC said the organizers are going "courier the goody bags" to our homes! To all 10 036 of Hooligans! I'm blessed. I hope they don't forget the refreshments, because I didn't see any. They must have packed em all for us already. So we were escorted back by the security, and before we reached to our cars a free sauna was given to all of us in the tunnel of hell.

Basically who ever organized this, had the idea to gather 10 000 people, ask them for average RM 55 each, tell them to come at night to a dark, far away track, let them run. Get a rude MC, among the few things to spice things up and to make it more fun let's make the run to four different categories, just to see which of them could beat the crap out of you the hardest.

Roger, we have a problem

2011-04-16T00:25:00.002+08:00

Random shit

2011-04-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

I was up set just now, but I'm all okay now. Instead of nagging, I did the alternative which was 'bragging'. By 'bragging' I can be thankful of what I have instead of what I don't have or have not achieved. So I made a long list of 'bragging'. The list was all about thanking Allah, things like; I have great parents who are my strength and support, awesome friends like Izz, great family and cousin like Djah who will always love me as I am and don't judge me easily. I'm glad Allah helped me during the hard times and have guided me to the right path. Things like that.

Surprisingly, it works. I felt much better. It could be a diversion, or simply an eye opening situation where I could focus on the things that I already have and never really manage to be thankful of.

Just random shit.
This weekend I'm going for marathon. Quite nervous. But kinda exciting. We shall see. With the injuries I have. This can be very interesting. I wonder...

People won't stop tell lies

2011-03-29T04:18:00.002+08:00

I went to youtube. There are people harassing my religion, my belief. Just because they think they know one thing about my religion they are allowed to judge it. You are the one who turned your back when good things are said to you. Don't go spitting on my face about the things that you don't know. I didn't go to your place and call you stupid, just because I can. If you disagree just shut up and listen. Because listening is the beginning of understanding. Islam is peace. Even though I hate your words. I won't take a gun and shoot you. Life and death are in God's hand. If I were to die, I would prefer I die as a respectful loving person than a hateful woman. And I wish the same for you

Dusty, the cat burglar

2011-03-24T15:56:00.002+08:00

Ok. this is a must watch.
hahha
seriously. a real cat who steals things

Go. Fark. Yourself. TQ

2011-03-12T19:29:00.002+08:00

So I have been to counseling. And the counselor sort of discussed and suggested me to let things out with someone close. So I let it out to Izzati. Someone who I know understands me. Because throughout the years we have been friends, we sort of have the same ideas or perception on life.

Which is cool, I kinda know how she will react. And I did it. It went well. So Izzati now know the things that I haven't told anyone. Just basically how crazy life has been for me. I remember a few things she said, "Ima, if you ever need help, you can always ask me. Like seriously okay?"

Then she did say, "I kinda knew but I didn't know it's that bad". Yeah I guess it is quite shitty. But one thing I learn from Izzati and my family. No matter how shitty life is, just endure it. Because life is worth it.

Oh Yeah, so what's with the title? It's for those who don't know me and prefer to judge me. And it's for those who like to judge people. Because you think you know them. But you don't know shit. I don't judge you, don't you dare judge me.

I'm a mess

2011-03-07T03:53:00.000+08:00

Here I am, 3:43am. Ponder on life. How much of a mess I am. Not too deep I think. But shit does happen. I was brushing my teeth at three in the morning. Staring at the brush and the bubbles... The white paste that was green, while at the time my mind thought about how deep Nani's cut is.

Nani, a footballer. Before he dramatically went to the ground he ran to the referee to show his cut on his shin, then he realized that the cut is actually deeper than he thought. So there were many people saying that he faked it. But he wasn't. I know because I had a cat. Who was ran over by a car, in front of my eyes. He then got up ran straight to the door of my house and lay down, he died seconds after. I cried. I'm still crying...

It's weird isn't it from one simple thing that happens would trigger a memory that you wish you have forgotten. I also realized that, I have kept too many painful memories in me. The memories that I barely put my mind into it. At times I didn't even cry. If you have seen me smile is because I chose to. If you see me sad, or angry it's because I had no control of. Pain can get worse, if you never try to mend it at first...

Time, I know you hate me.

2011-03-04T02:18:00.000+08:00

So many things happened. Today I played futsal and I was shit. not the shit. just shit.
I miss the old environment where I feel safe and comfortable with my teammates. That environment is missing. Most of them aren't around and now I feel like a survivor trying to be the best by my own effort. Because? There isn't support. I guess people are friendlier but they are not friends. Friends are those who stay when you did shit, applaud for your effort and give you awesome advice on how to improve yourself. But again, I am the empathetic one.

There you go, I said it all about futsal.

I always like to make friends with Time. But Time hates me. At times I try to compete with Time, you know during the times when I manage to get things done before deadline. My love-hate relationship with Time will be endless.

I've been going for counseling, to get back the confident that I lost. It's a bit hard. But I don't hate my self. Which is good. I can move on from the guilt I have.

I'm in a confusing state of mind. Fragile. Yet determined. Half of myself want to fight and the other half want to sleep, curl on bed, inside a cave. Far away from people.
Fark it. I am only human. You don't like me, you can suck ... something

Some things that friends do

2011-03-03T04:14:00.001+08:00

What's new?

2011-01-27T23:33:00.000+08:00

Okay firstly, I think this is funny yet cool, but you have to see the comments lah, farkin hilarious.

Come to think about it if I walk like a gorilla it wont make me famous pon kan? They just say I'm gila.

Next!

Have you heard about the mystery piano?
Read this!

That is cool, who ever came out with that. Very cool.

Then, there's this

Amy Chua's article
What's interesting is that what she said might actually reflecting your past memory?
Though my up bringing wasn't like that. I do have a few questions for her...

Okay, I cried this week. Only cos of two things.
First, because Rafael Da Silva got a concussion. Okay, maybe a bit weird. I'm just very empathetic, on top of that I have a huge crush on him. He's an awesome footballer.

Secondly is this:

Chris Medina. I think he is an awesome man. He does remind me of my dad a bit. But, seriously I don't need money or fame (which I can't be bothered with anyway), if you have a man like that. I sincerely hope the best for him and Juliana Ramos (his fiance)...

Last thing to type out, I don't have facebook no more.
For two simple reasons:
a) I don't need it
b) it has been a distraction

that's all folks!

Kalau mak mati, kau basuh dapur Ima.

2011-01-23T15:42:00.003+08:00

Kalau mak mati, kau basuh dapur Ima.

I don't know what to think about it. I can't really laugh it off since she mentioned death, but isn't it a quirky thing to say?

This is one of the random things she say, I am immune to it. And you think your mom is weird?

Playtime is over, the bitch is back.

2011-01-21T00:47:00.000+08:00

I had my fun, lepak-ing, playing games, doing things that just satisfy my wants. Now it's time to study. College is back on and I can hear the bitch is coming. By bitch I mean stress.

I'm off to bed, then tomorrow will be a different day, different ball game. Come on bitch, I am ready for you this time! i think...

Two cheeky monkeys

2011-01-17T21:04:00.001+08:00

Those two in front, bila I jumpa, I will hug them so tight. Garhhh! I miss Iyah and Ishaa.

Time is essence

2011-01-14T08:21:00.000+08:00

You gotta read this article
It's not I'm going, it's I'm coming

Penis; sign language

2011-01-08T01:38:00.003+08:00

hahahaaa

2011 to do list :)

2011-01-06T00:04:00.002+08:00

If this is my last year on earth, why don't I live my life the fullest?
So, this year I would want to have proper goals for my self, and I'm gonna post what I hope to achieve and what I have achieved. I just believe the purpose of doing so not to show off but to encourage my self to do the best I can, and maybe who ever reads this might actually do the same?

Though there is only one rule;

Do the best that I can do, and it doesn't have to be perfect. Just do it as well as I can :)

Before setting my goals, I am categorizing it into three; Daily, Awesome and Special. Daily goals are the things I should do daily, Special goals are the things I want to achieve in this year, with a deadline. While, Awesome goals are the things that are not necessarily I need to achieve but it will be awesome! :)

Daily goals:

Solat at least 5 times a day*
Read the Quran two pages a day*
Help mom to cook, do chores
Tidy up the room
Work out**
Study**

* Exceptional on my monthly special day off
** Maximum 5 times a week

Special goals:

Launch my online business (6-months to 1 year)
Get to my ideal weight (by October?)
Improve my grades (Every semester)
Save some money (Monthly)

Awesome goals:

Go for at least three marathons
River rafting
Get a good longboard
Learn to surf
Have a great holiday

Of course there are other things I want to achieve but I don't need to post it here; things like be punctual and stuff. 0.o

It's time for kick off! Good luck!

Flashback at 2010

2011-01-01T03:05:00.001+08:00

Here are some of my 2010 highlights...

Met Shrek and Fiona

I think Sofia Vergara is funny and her son is good looking

Rafael Da Silva is my favourite Man Utd player

In loving memory Twilight :(

Went to UK and went for a hike!

Just found out Channing Tatum is Man Utd fan

Had a huge family gathering in Singapore!

Only found 97 out of 99 red balloons in GTA

Torpedo has been adopted to a better home :)

Malaysia won AFF Suzuki Cup. And I am so proud of them!

Christmas turkey!

2010-12-27T09:17:00.000+08:00

How to size a turkey?

Take your youngest child, in this case a 15-month old baby girl and....

The famous Om nom nom

2010-12-22T01:26:00.001+08:00

My cat does it. The "om nom nom" sound... it's something like what this kitty is doing

But the origin of om nom nom is from cookie monster of sesame street! haha.

Alorrr

2010-12-12T13:55:00.000+08:00

Abang Aiman and Adik Aaliyah

I hate it when

2010-12-10T01:10:00.000+08:00

I hate it when...

My brain keeps telling me I have a lot to do.
My mom keeps adding my to do list
My mom wants her request to be on the top of my to do list
I know I made a stupid fucking mistake that troubles other people
I have an itch but I don't know where.
Suddenly I don't know which is more important
I look at the scale
I have weird allergies
I have to fork out more money
I feel like losing my mind!

Oh you're so naive!

2010-11-13T02:07:00.000+08:00

I LOVE The Kooks.

Random thought

2010-11-05T17:15:00.000+08:00

I came across a video on youtube about a guy who condemns Islam and oh man... the comments below it were even worse! I was angry and still up set. But there is this guy who said something like this

-there is no point arguing with people who don't want to know the truth, they just want to argue for the sake of arguing

(Source: Baba Ali)

Good point.

Then I remember reading a textbook about critical thinking and it goes something like this

-if you don't understand it (whether the language of the claim or the topic of the claim) then it's not an argument

(Source: Critical Thinking by Richard Epstein)

Another good point.

Then another good point...

"They have no knowledge of this, neither they nor their fathers. It is a monstrous utterance which has issued from their mouths. What they say is nothing but a lie."

(Source: Qur'an, 18:5 Surat Al-Kahf: 5)
Learning from the Quran by Harun Yahya and http://quran.com/18/5

Allah knows better...

Something to share :)

2010-11-01T03:20:00.012+08:00

This is something to be shared to you, I hope you don't turn away from this :) and may this help you insya Allah...

It's Allah's decision to give hidayah. Everyday from now on, I pray for hidayah. I cry for it. As a human I am weak. Before you about to object or agree, I will lead you to a story of my past.

I am an arrogant fool, and I think (though I can't be sure) that my parents have prayed and still pray for their children to receive hidayah from Allah swt. And He had tested me many times during these few years. For each and every test was a blessing in disguise.

I have always believe I can do anything if I put my mind into it. Even though I have told my self and my ex boyfriend "You can do anything in this world, if you put your mind into it and if Allah allows it", though I have not really embraced this idea. Then Allah showed me people who are better than me and no matter how hard I tried, I failed. I failed to be better and I failed to accept it. It was so terrible, that everything I did had failed. Even on the things that I have always been good at. Alhamdulillah, I have gone pass through it. I have learned a few things from this. I have learned that what ever abilities that I have are only temporary and those abilities are not mine but are Allah's, and He can take them away from me if He wants to. I have learn to appreciate those abilities and be thankful to Allah for them.

I am trying and heading towards to be a better Muslim. Insya Allah. Though to strengthen my iman, to find my self, to understand Islam and to be closer to Allah have obstacles. Though I promised my self not ot make sins, I keep making them. I am weak for I am human. So I keep praying to Allah for hidayah and to help me to be strong. You can tell yourself that you are mentally strong but you are not strong if you cannot fight syaitan and control your desires.

Small things that I have done can be wrong. Though I have let my self to be wrong. Insya Allah, Allah will help me to make the right decisions.

To my dearest Muslim readers, to my family and friends;

Please allow yourself to indulge Islam, don't let yourself turn away from Allah's words, from hidayah.

We did not send down the Qur'an to you to make you miserable, but only as a reminder for those who have fear, (Qur'an, 20:2-3)

We have made the Qur'an easy to remember.But is there any rememberer there? (Qur'an, 54:17)

Source: Learning from the Qur'an by Harun Yahya

A few things in the Quran 1

2010-10-29T03:36:00.006+08:00

Click to enlarge

Source of Image: http://quran.com/8/29

For my nephews and nieces

2010-10-25T13:09:00.003+08:00

yoU hAve A wEIrD ANd a c@REfreE aunt

Who will always love you and will kick your arses if you if you ever misbehave.

lots of love.

Aunty Imah.

I feel like watching something musical!

2010-10-13T07:33:00.001+08:00

The best foxtrot for me, Derek is a genius, Nicole is awesome. Love her personality and love her determination.

Macam tooot

2010-10-10T03:13:00.000+08:00

I can't stop laughing.

Mamat ni lawak siot. Remi Gaillard's Kangaroo

Farking hilarious!

2010-09-23T01:24:00.000+08:00

Charice Bodyguard Medley and Somewhere Over the Rainbow

2010-09-02T12:37:00.002+08:00

The latest video I can find on bodyguard medley. She is awesome. I can't wait for season 2 Glee!

Here's another of my favourite

This is great. If you are a muslim, watch this.

2010-08-27T22:54:00.001+08:00

Love story part 3

2010-08-25T04:20:00.006+08:00

Suddenly it came to mind that I have never really written about my life story in this blog. Though I often share random thoughts and events such as what I have found about my self today; I love learning! But that I will talk about later. Today I want to talk about love; my parents love.

To date, my parents have been married for 40 years. My parents know each other well, just like my father said to my mom, "kita kahwin dengan awak lebih lama dari kita hidup bujang" (I am married to you longer than I live as a bachelor). In a way what he said is very sweet.

I love my dear parents, very much. Some parts of me are like them. I don't usually show my emotions like my father but if I do show some emotions I am just like my mother, hard to control my self.

My father is a caring, funny,responsible and a patient man. He loves my mom dearly. My mom is as well funny; most of it unintentionally. She is kind and she's caring and very loving. For those who have met her, know that she shows off her affection daringly. She will kiss you at your cheek after you shake her hands, she'll tell you to take care and she will often praise you.

Every love has their struggles. My parents has many as well. But one is different to most and it has to do with schizophrenia.

My mom has schizophrenia, and she has it for 35 years of her life. I don't believe there is any shame for it, it is a disease like any others just that it isn't as familiar as others. Schizophrenia involves hallucination mostly. It's harder to put in words. But if you see the movie Beautiful Mind, you might get it.

During the early periods of having schizophrenia, my mother hated my father and a lot of other people as well. She heard voice that said awful things and felt that my father hated her, cheated on her and was cruel to her. Of course it isn't true. But it was hard on her so she ran away. She went back to Singapore to live with her siblings. At the time my eldest sister and brother were toddlers. They had to stay with Ayah (my father). Ayah loves mama (my mom) and every weekend he will take the kids and go to Singapore despite whether he had money or not. He will visit her every weekend and begged her to come home, persuaded her and gave her money so that she can buy things there. He never gave up on her, not even once. Ayah had to take care my elder siblings alone mostly, though he had to leave them alone at home when he was at work but he cooked and cared for them while mama wasn't around. Mama didn't want to go back home. She stayed there for quite some time. There was even time when my mom wanted to sell some kuih to make a living. Ayah gave her the money to start it.

My aunty told me that there were times where mom kicked ayah. In a way she told me it was funny. But I know at the time it was nothing close to funny. After some time with my aunties and uncles help, my dad took her to hospital where she was given medications and all sorts. She came back home, took care of my two elder siblings and after a few years they had my older brother and then me. Now, mama is getting better, she still has to take her medications and injections but other wise she is great. Ayah is a hero. For those who are close to us, they know my father is a hero. But for those who undestand both of my parents they know that my parents are both heroes. Going through schizophrenia is a very confusing thing. It has been hard for mama, confusing for her to know the truth or lies. Her thoughts are different than most of us, but her love for ayah and her children is just nothing short than amazing. She cooks and cleans for us, she kisses ayah on his cheeks loads a time in a day. She fights her illness heroicly. Though a lot of people don't understand her and how silly she can be, she goes through life happily.

Even at times it is hard for us the children to understand mama but nevertheless we love her so very much. Everyday in my life I pray to Allah for me to understand mama's condition and Alhamdulillah Allah has helped me. Like every mother she will do something that will embarass or annoy her kids, but I find that funny and loving.

There are of things I find them to be very romantic, ayah and mama will still hold hands, kiss and hug. Ayah will always back up mama and tease her at times, mama will always be worried of ayah's well being and cooks ayah's favourite dishes. And all of those affections in 40 years of marriage (and counting; Insya Allah), is just a small piece of love.

Always be there

2010-08-17T00:28:00.002+08:00

I love Maher Zain's nasheed

Crap!

2010-08-14T06:58:00.003+08:00

"Oh CRAP!"

I've been having 'oh crap' moments.

Ellen's bathroom concert

2010-08-02T16:19:00.002+08:00

Ellen Degeneres and Jennifer Hudson.

I LOL through out the whole clip. Hope you would enjoy it too

Give me money so I can spend it.

2010-08-01T00:43:00.003+08:00

Why keep your money? It's not like you'll take it along with you when you're dead.

Blimey! At times my dad enjoys being blunt. One of his weird advices, of course he wasn't serious at the time. I think.

I've promised my self if I'm rich I wont spend my money much. Then to think again what's the point you have the money in the first place? But then again, I don't think I would know what to do with that much of money...

Would it actually make me happy that I can buy all the things I've ever wanted? Maybe, but not for eternity. What things can make me happy forever? Nothing on this earth.

There will be too many things I will look at and say how nice to have them, then too many things that I have owned and I don't really care about them after awhile. So my new shopping tip is, if I don't need it, I don't have to buy it now. If I want it, better make sure I buy it for my own use and not to impress others with it. Because people tend to do so, being proud of things, and I was in that category. I hope not to be there ever again.

What else do I need? When I have this one?

i want this book

2010-07-16T13:32:00.002+08:00

What busy people do when they have 5 minutes? Eye wash.

2010-07-12T20:26:00.003+08:00

For some reason I wanted to find out how Devon Sawa looks like now. He was cute during his teen yeas, got a bit out of shape at his 20s... Now?

Yup, that's him. In a movie still. From devonsawaorg.

Honesty sometimes comes with a lie (1)

2010-06-30T04:33:00.004+08:00

I haven't posted up anything for two months. There is a reason for this. This post could be the most ridiculous or most boring post ever, with lengthy and dragging story and messages that may lost in translation.

Have you ever lied to yourself?

I have, for so many times. The best part is that I rarely realized that I lied. The reason for it, maybe I just want my self to feel better. The truth is, I just realized that being truthful is a remedy for a broken heart. I will only feel better when I am honest, especially to my self.

I was never okay, or swell.

The truth, I had depression and I was in denial. Life had been so hard for me and it had changed me. I kept things to my self for so long, I never told anyone that I was hurt and I was broken. I can't even tell my bestfriend Izzati,and how that has changed our friendship quite a bit. Guess what? I haven't fully recovered, and I am somehow a broken person still.

My ego is just too hard to break

Ego could be a good thing but it can eat you as well. It was definitely ego that wont let me show pain and it was ego that wouldn't let me accept things that had happened to me.

Can I blame someone for this?

I hate depression, when I hate something I will try to find a way to blame something or someone, and that someone can be me. Blaming my self too much is not a good thing, blaming others for things that went wrong can be lying. I do believe that things that occur to a person is because, in a way that person was involved in it. Trouble always come when you are asking for it.

... (I'll continue later).

The dude is hilarious.

2010-04-29T23:55:00.002+08:00

It's KevJumba. Freaking hilarious. Gila slumber bully bapak dia.
BTW, Alpha Kenny Body is "i'll fuck anybody".

For all of you women (or not) marathon runner

2010-04-21T09:49:00.006+08:00

Remember this name K. V. Switzer.

She is best known as the woman who ran the 1967 Boston Marathon. She is the first woman to run in that marathon with an official number on, and five years before women are officially allowed to join the marathon.

What makes it more interesting is the picture below;

One of the co-directors; Jock Semple, tried to remove her from the race. Arnie Biggs, a friend of hers tried to help her and then, her at the time boyfriend Tom; a 235 pounds guy, shoved Jock Semple aside.

In the end, Jock Semple flew off, Kathrine Switzer finished the run for about 4:20:00, but the run was considered as unofficial.

To know more about her and the 1967 Boston Marathon check here at Kathrine Switzer's site.

Kathrine is now married to Roger Robinson (yeah it isn't Tom), and became great friends with Jock Semple (yes, the guy who tried to remove her from the race). Jock died on March 9th 1988. Kathrine Switzer is still running till today and she helped changed the views of people, that women can run and do things that men can, if they want to.

HIATUS

2010-04-20T00:23:00.002+08:00

HIATUS

iTs TImE tO fIX tHInGS AND bE ThE bETtER mE.

Bits of this and that

2010-04-18T15:22:00.006+08:00

Singapore

I went to Singapore the day after my colloquium. Being in Singapore was superb and it made me forgot all about colloquium.

Universal Studios

I will update this post soon when I have all the pictures. Gonna make a link to photoblog or something.

(Picture taken by Jeb Danes)

We met some characters like Shrek and Princess Fiona, Alex, Gloria & King Julian (Madagascar)and Woody Woodpecker to name a few.

With King Julian & family

Gloria

The people there are professionals. Well trained. Awesome rides. Good food. Value for money and cute outfits!

We had so much fun. I'm gonna go there again in May insya Allah.

The kids

Adik Leesha and adik Liya are sooooooo adorable. Aleesha is 2 years and 4 months old. Aaliyah is almost 7 months.

My favourite Aleesha's quotes and dialogues.

Her daddy:Aleesha you want to mandi?
Aleesha :Walk to her dad... Yup!

Me :Aleesha, where's your gum? (she can chew gums)
Aleesha :It's in my mouth

Aleesha :I like my sandals! I like your sandals!

Aleesha :Makan ayam, sedap! Upin and Ipin script.

Aleesha :I don't want seatbelts on!

Aleesha :The food is funny

Aleesha :Mum!

Aleesha :I wanna follow aunty Imah

Aleesha to Aaliyah: You're so cute!

She speaks in British slang and good grammar. The kid is only 2!

Aleesha

Aaliyah

I want desserts bitch!

2010-04-01T22:31:00.003+08:00

Something I learn in life; never to mess around with a hungry woman during her menstruation.

My hormones are in a twist. Because tonight, I end my sentence with swear words and i even talk about food too much. Like, "i want cream puffs lah bitch", or "craving gila babi".
Can't wait for next week. Can't wait the end of April as well. I am off to my dreamland.

You know you want me...

2010-03-25T01:24:00.001+08:00

This woman made my day. and almost everyday. haha.

Sleepy heaD...

2010-03-24T00:02:00.003+08:00

I miss my nephews and nieces.
Ini budak amat comel.
April nanti saya nak tangkap gambar menarik. And share it here... I think she sleeps funny for a two-week old.

My kitten/elly. She's weird. Same goes for me.

Barb wire

2010-03-16T03:32:00.005+08:00

Today's post has nothing to do with its title. It was just the first thing that came into my mind.

FUNNY
A flip of Baby Justin Bieber.

The UGLIEST Picture I have ever captured of Bella:

I'm an aunt, the kids will bully me. It's a circle of life.

Sometimes people forget...

2010-03-13T15:43:00.002+08:00

Sometimes people forget what its all about... US and Haiti U-17 women soccer

Fri Mar 12, 2010 11:29 am EST

U.S. U-17 women beat Haiti 9-0, then offer hugs
By Brooks Peck

On Wednesday, the U.S. women's under-17 team defeated Haiti 9-0 in their first qualifying match for the CONCACAF U-17 Women's Championships in Costa Rica. Once the final whistle blew, Haitian goalkeeper Alexandra Coby was so overwhelmed with emotion that she dropped to the pitch, weeping. It was all just too much for her and understandably so -- losing by such a harsh margin, even to a much better team, is always difficult to take, but given that Haiti is in the midst of trying to recover from the devastating earthquake that ravaged the Caribbean nation's capital two months ago and left hundreds of thousands of people dead, there was much more saddling these girls than just a lost game.

And the U.S. team saw that. As Haiti's coach helped the crying goalkeeper to her feet, U.S. goalie Bryane Heaberlin walked the length of the pitch, gave Coby a hug and didn't let go. The rest of the U.S. team soon joined her, circling around the two goalkeepers for a long group hug that left the entire squad in tears.

Said Heaberlin to USsoccer.com:

“I saw her crying and that was pretty hard for me to see. She’s a 'keeper and we have that bond. I knew that she had probably lost people close to her, and when she goes home she might not have anywhere to go. I gave her a big hug and told her she did great. She came to compete in this tournament despite all that she’s been through and I have tremendous respect for her.”

Haiti's participation in the tournament despite all that's going on back home for them has been the talk of the competition and the team's determination and bravery hasn't been lost on their opponents. Added U.S. defender Olivia Brannon:

“It just put everything into perspective. It makes you realize what is truly important, your family, having a roof over your head, and having food on the table. We take all those things for granted. I had my mom in the stands cheering for me tonight. Some of these girls might never have that again.”

So while the match itself may have seemed like piling on, it should be pointed out that the U.S. team didn't pander to their Haitian counterparts, instead showing them the respect of playing hard the whole game before sharing their true feelings and consolations after the final whistle. And these young Haitian girls will hopefully go back knowing that they're not alone.

Photo: USsoccer.com

Random things on my mind.

2010-03-09T01:53:00.015+08:00

That is baby Afiqah. The newest member of my family. COMEL! She makes me happy everytime I meet her. hehe.

I NEED A BREAK!

Oh yes, SAYA STRESS and I've been thinking about a lot of things and decided that I wont be taking the short semester this May and I'm gonna fly to UK.

My plan is...

I want to:

See these kids
Kids with their mom

Meet this girl (Miss No2):

Go here:

In newspaper. yumms

and Eat THAT!

Silent thoughts

2010-03-05T01:29:00.003+08:00

If it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad?

-Sheryl Crow.

You make me breathless...

2010-03-02T23:56:00.003+08:00

Cos you fart, you idiot.

...............

No lah... Just because.......

La la la...

2010-02-25T19:49:00.009+08:00

Updates: I've done my ERB (Ethics Review Board)form. Doa-doa pass lah. I've done the best I can do.Insya Allah it goes well. Now I'm doing a proposal for my archival research.

Lets play with numbers.

1 ERB form submitted.
2 Colloquium presentations.
3 is for march and its coming soon! one more anak sedara.
4 months of hell (my semester.)
5 months since Aaliyah was born.
6 total of assignments I have.
7 is July, my birthday!
8 is for August, Raihana nye anak dilahirkan insya Allah.
9 . . .
10 number of furry felines I have.

I am five months old

oh tidak lupa.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IZZATIIIIIIII!

Besties and their ♥for sushi

Trying to get some time off...

2010-02-13T17:09:00.010+08:00

I was hoping to go to Singapore this weekend, but my plan changed. I'm busy, and I have to finish up some work.

I got a new kitten, I named her Twilight. Because I'm too tired to figure out a name for her.

Twilight

I slept over a friend's house cause she needed someone to accompany her and her sister; their family is at Kampung right now. So we decided to hang out. Okay, well there was not even a discussion on where to go. The sister just decided to go out. I was only wearing track pants and a hoodie sweater my bestie Izzati bought me, and a pair of sandals. Guess where we ended up? Genting Highland. We left at 2.40 in the morning and arrived there at 3.30am.

What can you do there at 3.30am? Get a latte, at Starbucks. Then went back home after snapping few pictures, we arrived home at 6.30am and I had a nap for 2 hours before going to work. Awesome kan?

Tak boleh baca

OH! I wish some guys in Malaysia would do this. But oh well, Kellan Lutz is a different category.

I just wanna cuss (this post is not for kids)

2010-02-10T00:00:00.004+08:00

Memang FUCK.

I don't like cussing but I just had to.

Fuck FUCK fuck.

Benci gila. Schedule is like fuck, workload is like fuck and time flies by so fucking fast.

My assignments are not due soon but I have to get started and I have no idea what to do on my research papers and experiments. Tak ada idea.

For one to do experiments we need to fill up ERB form or ethic review board's form. Most of the time we have to resend the ERB form twice because the first one will most likely be rejected.

Secondly, when it is pass we need to look for journals and not one but 7-8 past researches work. Which isn't easy to do. Then what we do with those will not be your interest.

I'm trying to get the ideas confirmed by this week and to submit one of th ERB forms end of this week too.

Endure shit with a smile.

Kids say the darndest thing

2010-02-05T02:53:00.003+08:00

I have 4 nieces 2 nephews for now. Here are some of their memorable quotes and memorable things they did.

Aiman is 9, i think
Airin and Haziq are 7
Aqilah is 4, i think
Aleesha is 2
and baby Alia is coming to 5 months.

Aiman (around the age of 4: Can I have a dog?
His daddy: No.
Aiman: Can I have two dogs?

Airin: Cats are halal, but dogs are better.

Aleesha to Alia: Baby don't cry, I'll carry you.

Me (asking Haziq when he started to walk again after khatan): Haziq! Dah boleh jalan ke?
Haziq: Boleh!
Aqilah: Haziq jalan macam ni (jalan gila kengkang).

Kak Rose: Haziq, Haziq ni orang ke kambing? (he was 5 and he likes goats)
Haziq: Kambing.
Kak Rose: Hey! Kambing ada ekor lah. Haziq mana ada ekor?
Haziq: Ada! Kat tote...

Aleesha: I want nenen (milk)..
No one said anything.
Aleesha: I want nenen now!

Alia is having her milk and Aleesha is waiting for her turn, though the wait was long...
Aleesha to Alia: Baby finish?

Haziq was playing a game with Aqilah but then he cheated on the game...
Aqilah: Haziq ni main tak senonoh!

Me: Aiman, put on your pants lah
Aiman: I have!
Me: Not really Aiman. You only have your shorts on
Aiman: They call it trousers here. (He's staying in UK)

A guy from tv: Idiot!
Aiman: Oo oh! He said the F word!

I may cry if I don't own this

2010-02-02T01:27:00.005+08:00

In Perlis

In Sabah

In Sungai Buloh

*sigh*
-all pictures are from Classic Celica Club Malaysia

Thinking of Robert Pattinson, in a Myvi and on a hot dude's lap.

2010-01-27T10:56:00.005+08:00

I love internet, I love surfing the net and I love too many things about this... thing?

Robert Pattinson

It wasn't love at first sight with him, but for me he's hot now. I like his scruffiness and casual look. Anyways... I found a picture I am sure not a lot of people have seen this.

Almost unrecognizable kan? From the movie Vanity Fair.

Drive a Myvi?
A lot of my friends do. For all the Myvi drivers out there, if you ever wonder what the British thinks about your car, here is a link. A review from 5th gear.

>Click here for the link!

Sitting on the laps of hot dudes, priceless

Parents are awesome.

2010-01-24T03:13:00.002+08:00

Well my parents are, at least.

I had a few hours outing with my mum and dad.
A lot of things happened:

1. Angels and Airwaves song "The Adventure" was playing on my phone, then...

Mak: Itu lagu je ke?
Me : Ada gak dia nyanyi jap lagi.
Mak: Sedap jugak lagu ni.
Me : eh??

2. I had an argument with mak on the names of our relatives...

Mak: Nama dia Intan, adik dia Belian lah
Me : Hah?! merepek je! Nama dia Intan adik dia orang panggil Yan tapi Azian lah..
Mak: Bukan! Mak dah tanya mak dia.
Me : Tak ada lah! Merepek je. Orang tahu lah.
Ayah: Dah lah! Kau jangan gaduh dengan mak kau lah!
Pause for awhile...
Ayah: Habis anak lelaki dia nama apa?
Pause again...
Ayah: Stainless steel?

3. Manchester United vs. Hull City

Rooney scored his second goal.

Me : whoa! gila lah!
Ayah: (shook his head) Rooney ni, fuuhh.

Our admiration for Wayne Rooney.

4. Sink pecah.

"Crash!"
I went to look around where it came from, turned out my parent's toilet sink fell and broke while my mum was using it.

Me: Mak, okay tak? kena kaki tak?
Mak: (in menggelabah mode) tak, tak... tapi mak tak tekan pun, dia jatuh.
Me: Ayah, okay tak?
Ayah: hmm. zzzzz. (went back to sleep).

Golden moments.

2010-01-19T08:41:00.005+08:00

Click this link for E! Glam Cam 360

Check the link above. I like the pictures. Especially this one. BTW, it's 360 cam, so it goes 360 like the matrix. awesome.

:)

2010-01-10T05:26:00.005+08:00

Iphone kid.

A picture can mean a thousand words

2009-12-15T16:26:00.002+08:00

and today I like this one

Sheesh I'm old: My first advice to my babies

2009-11-04T11:52:00.003+08:00

I don't believe in bad days, instead I believe in a day good and bad things will happen. But it depends how that bad/good things make impact on you and how well you take it. Usually I will ignore the worse and taking all the best parts of my days.

So today my life started out not really in a good side, had a tiring day, having panic attack because of my exmas and feel a bit useless in my assignment. Until I received a short email. A well written short thanks you email from my nephew. Aiman Hakeem just turned 9 on 29th October. I had sent him an e card through his dad for his birthday and he responded back by giving me an email.

and this what he sent:

"Hello auntie Imah. Thank you for my birthday card. Say hi to everyone for me.

Best wishes,
Aiman"

I am happy. I know I maybe emotional, but he is my nephew, the boy I carried around when he was younger, fed him food and junks while the parents weren't around (Sorry abg leh & kak nony, i was young my self and i cant resist), put him to bed, kiss him when ever I can.

I love doing all that, and I wont stop carrying any of my nephews or nieces until I can't lift them up anymore or until they tell me to stop.
Kids, I can't tell you to stop growing so fast, but grow up to be good and happy and Aunty Ima will always love you all, equally with no limits.

Tributes

2009-10-23T16:39:00.003+08:00

My favourite TV show, Dancing With The Stars did a tribute of one of my inspirations, Michael Jackson.

and

to Patrick Swayze Dirty Dancing

99 balloons; learn to be thankful

2009-10-18T16:07:00.005+08:00

It's a true story, and I googled them, I think they're having their third baby, the second child is Hazel Mooney. :)

The Mooney's blog

GREAT THANKS to Ummi, saw the video from her blog

Exam stress

2009-10-12T22:31:00.004+08:00

Methylenedioxymethamphetamine. Say that 10 times, you still wont get an A for biopsychology. Its actually a scientific name for esctasy.

I am in need of relaxation, marijuana? Okay, clearly I've been reading on drugs.

Nothing could make me laugh harder than this at the moment

They call this "TURTLE FUCKER".
Try google turtle boy. You will know what this is.

How I wish I could hang out more with my cheeky bastards and bitches friends. Funny people that make me laugh.

Izzati, jom gi holiday.

Love story 2: the list

2009-09-29T01:51:00.003+08:00

I've been friends with I.Tj for more then 5 years, I wanna stop counting it till years ahead and be surprised by how long we have known each other. I also know if the guy she is with really deserves her and now, she has found someone who really deserves her.

Babe, I haven't asked your permission and just publish it hehe. But I will remove it if you want me to.

So here goes.

I.Tj is special, and everyone around her knows that. So when she first dated this guy K, years ago I knew it was just a fling thing going on. She seemed clueless at the time but she couldn't care less. Till that ass-dude fell for her best friend. Then things went awry but I don't think I.Tj was hurt much.

N was her first boyfriend. Let me be honest, I think he was a nice guy but I knew that they wont last. Everytime I.Tj said she loves him, I would flinch a bit. It felt weird but I just smiled and said, "as long as you are happy". Obviously I knew she wasn't as happy as she can be. So the first love died and things were rough. As always, she got back up.

But during those tough periods she had loads of supports including from her parents, and this is my favourite part. I.Tj's parents sat down with her and her mom asked her to list down 10 things she wants in her future boyfriend. So she did and she wrote 10 things that for her was impossible for any guys to have.

Time passed by and she is now in a relationship with this guy named I.Ch. The dude is all fun for my best friend. Everytime she mentions about him her eyes just sparkle. I've met him before too and when ever he lay his eyes on her, well need I say more?

They are madly in love.

One day, I.tj found a piece of paper and guess what? Its the list! and... her current boyfriend scores 9/10.

Who says the perfect guy doesn't exist?

Today's lesson and jersey hunting

2009-09-10T23:17:00.007+08:00

Today's lesson: Choose the person that you can be happy with.

This morning I was listening to Fly fm. Someone wrote an email to the morning crew saying that she has two guys, who are very wealthy but one is not good looking and the other has bad body odour. So today's question was; "If its you, who would you choose?"

One of the best answers I heard was; "Choose the bad BO guy, but wear a mask, cause now its nothing unusual to wear a mask, or choose the ugly guy and ask him to wear the mask"

I just had to laugh. If I'm just being funny I would agree, but if I'm being serious, I would say neither. When you have everything that money could buy, you will still feel empty and unhappy..

Jersey hunting

I went to OU today to meet up with Atikah and get the Malaysian jersey that we wanted,

but we couldn't find one. SAD man.

I went to MPH. I bought two books:

The Alchemist: Izzati; my best friend, told me to get one

and...

Learning from the Qur'an: my conscious told me to get one

Now I want to buy tshirts and a new pair of sneakers.

One last wish

2009-09-07T00:26:00.004+08:00

My favourite... I love this piece, its called "One Last Wish" from James Horner and I heard this from Casper the movie of cause.

Tomorrow I'll be going to class, then I will go get my textbooks for my biopsychology and abnormal psychology classes Insya Allah.

One last wish, what is my one last wish? What is your one last wish?

Tarikh-tarikh atas (updates)

2009-08-29T07:37:00.003+08:00

Currently:

Listening to: Kings of Leon; Use Somebody

Watching: The Notebook. Tak ingat cerita dia macam mana.

Where: At my second floor living room

When: Cukup seminggu puasa, pukul 745pagi

New: Classes starting soon. I am not bothered by it.

Intention: Nak khatam for bulan Ramadhan if tak pun in two months. Trying to do twice a year khatam. Nak beli baju baru, kasut baru, jeans baru and handphone baru, oh not to forget new litter box for the cats.

Interests: Sejarah nabi and kisah tauladan dalam al-Quran. My favourite so far is the story of seorang lelaki yang ibu bapa nya babi. Seriously interesting. Click here if nak baca.

Others: I think Kellan Lutz is hot.

Lesson learned: Its okay to be scared, accept that at times we fail but we are never losers, and when we are scared always pray to Allah. Who else could help you if not the One who creates you.

when you asked too much, you'll get less

2009-08-12T22:36:00.005+08:00

its been awhile since i the last time i updated things bout my self.
im hungry, i have weird cravings, i feel like finding a new thing to do.

i should just be straight honest today, im tired keeping things inside..

1.i found a guy that i like to date. (direct bukan?) its very rare for me cause im picky, but im not gonna do anything about it.

2.I felt bad, cause today i did something without further thinking. i did something without planning and it came out wrong, not as what i actually wanted it to be. if im a guy, i would say i feel like im a prick.

3.im a bit sad that im not playing futsal much, felt that im left behind by the team. They are nice people with amazing talents, i just dont feel like competing with them

I know for a fact i might delete this, so if you are reading this, i guess you are lucky or not.

Lets talk about the good things

1.i could apply for scholarship

2.i might be playing futsal with atikah's team, which i find atikah is a damn good player who doesnt brag about it, and i like that.

3.im a change person, im learning more about Islam, and not everyone could be in this situation, its like hidayah and one thing with hidayah, you cant get it by anyone else, it cant be inherited and its Allah swt choice to whom He wants to give hidayah to

I saw these photos, and I don't know how to blog this

2009-08-01T00:10:00.000+08:00

Some photos of Potter cast

Tom Felton or Draco Malfoy

Matthew Lewis III or Neville Longbottom

Bonnie Wright or Ginny Weasley

More coming up! Too lazy to Google

Emily Bear, as cute as her name

2009-07-29T01:36:00.003+08:00

Gila comel budak nih...

I love Ellen Degeneres, and Emily Bear was a guest in Ellen's show. Emily is incredible and she is as cute as her name is.

See the video why I adore her...

Doa Taubat

2009-07-27T00:00:00.003+08:00

If I'm not mistaken, Khadijah (my cousin) went to Madrasah Aljunied Al Islamiah, and if its correct the people who sang this nasyid are from the same place. But I will confirm again.

I love this, I hope you would too.

Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla,
walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi.
Allah, fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii,
fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi

Ilaa hilaastu lil Firdausi ahla,
walaa aqwaa ‘alaa Naaril Jahiimi. Allah,
fahablii taubatan waghfir dzunuubii,
fainnaka Ghafirun dzambil ‘adziimi

Tuhanku aku tidak layak
untuk syurgaMu
tetapi aku tidak pula
sanggup menanggung
seksa nerakaMu,
dari itu kurniakanlah
ampunan kepadaku,
ampunkanlah dosaku,
sesungguhnya Engkaulah pengampun
dosa-dosa besar.

Tuhanku aku tidak layak
untuk syurgaMu
tetapi aku tidak pula
sanggup menanggung
seksa nerakaMu,
dari itu kurniakanlah
ampunan kepadaku,
ampunkanlah dosaku,
sesungguhnya Engkaulah pengampun
dosa-dosa besar.

Michael Jackson a muslim?

2009-07-15T23:29:00.006+08:00

Some people strongly believed that he converted to Islam, a few videos in youtube have what a lot believed is his Islamic song, the most convincing song would be "Islam in my veins"

and I found this song called "Waiting for the call" by Irfan Makki

Whether Michael converted or not, at the moment nothing can really proves it yet. I'm a Muslim and it would be great if he had converted to Islam, but only Allah knows and the decisions of heaven and hell is His choice.

Teen age

2009-07-13T00:34:00.007+08:00

I like this song, and this 16-year old did a cover of it. Demi Lovato's voice is pretty impressive...

the songs I've found

2009-07-05T02:30:00.002+08:00

Cocoon is an awesome group, i like their songs and this video clip is cute and funny
Cocoon "On My Way"

I know this song after Rizza and her sister did a cover on this
Yeah yeah yeahs "Hysteric"